Really we shouldn't look back I guess but I just spent a minute looking at my blog posts for this time last year. I had only been blogging for about 3 months at that time. When reading my reactions to the situation with my son I almost don't recognize myself.
I was in a terrible world of heartbreak. I can see that I was trying to control the disease and "fix" my son. I felt responsible for everything and everyone involved. My son's addiction consumed me. If it weren't for the guidance of some very straight forward speaking blogging family I don't know that I would have made it through those months.
I have said thank you before and I want to say it again today. Thank you all for commenting and offering your own experiences to me. I have grown through my recovery, today I feel more in control of myself and my emotions. I have learned how to say no and mean it. With your help, I have learned that I can love my son and do nothing to save him because that is not my job...that work belongs to him.
Peace for us all.
I wish we did not have to help each other with such a dreadful task. But at least we can. You have come a long way, baby!
ReplyDeleteThank you, you were one of those voices that brought me back to reality. Can say I REALLY wish I could give youa big hug in person someday? Everytime I see my grandson I think of you and give thanks that I can and pray that you get to meet your grandchildren one day very soon.
DeleteI wish I could give you a hug too! Thank you for thanking me. I never thought I'd be able to help anyone despite of my own pain. I am sure glad that I could! I hope I live long enoug to see my precious grandbabies some day! Love, Helga
DeleteI have faith that it will happen soon.
DeleteLove, Terri
Terri,
ReplyDeleteI often look back to learn from my actions. What worked for me what hurt me and my son. These are lessons I did not enjoy learning but I went there. The long ago pain is still there but those lessons are what will keep me from living the life I lived for 7 years.
You have done the most amazing thing. You have learned and grown. That is the reward we get from this nightmare. We don't have a choice about following this path but we can continue our life when we do as you have done.
We are all here for all of us, including you.
Ron, you were/are a beacon in the dark. I appreciate your honesty and ability to say the words that I need to hear when I need to hear them. Thanks.
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