I'm not sure how I am feeling right now. It is almost the 30 day mark for my son in this new rehab and he will be able to make phone calls and begin to have visits. Part of me feels very anxious to hear from him and part of me feels well, anxious about hearing from him.
I'd like to know he is okay but I really don't want to know if things are awful there and I don't want to hear him snivel and whine.
I know he is going to expect me to bring his son to visit right away. I don't know if that will be the right thing to do. My grandson hasn't seen his dad in 5 months and truthfully I can't remember the last time he saw his dad sober. He calls his step dad, "Dad". I may need to reach out to my therapist or a child development specialist to get an expert opinion. My son has talked to his son on the phone a couple of times and my grandson always asks him, "What is your name?" It is heart breaking.
Anyway, I'll deal with it one step at a time. That is the only way to do it.
I hope you guys are seeing sunshine. The sun came out in Arkansas today and we have hopes for some warmer weather. Come on springtime!!!!
The whole thing is so sad. The little son asking what his name is, the hope to hear from him, the dread to hear from him (which I totally get,) You are so wise to ask for help and guidance and to take it one day at a time. ((HUG)) Tough stuff. We are hoping for lots of rain here.....serious drought conditions.
ReplyDeleteWe have 8 inches of snow here in Tennessee. Hang in there, you are doing an awesome job, Terri!
ReplyDeleteIt is so sad about your grandson. I think it is a really good idea for you to seek advice from a counselor about having him visit his Dad in rehab. What a journey. One day at a time is all we can do. Snow here in upstate New York up to 18 inches before it all winds down!
ReplyDeleteYou're so right - one step at a time. I get what you mean about being anxious. I hope he's doing good and has come to the conclusion that its time to stop.
ReplyDelete